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Engayged

Amanda Malamut15 Comments

 

While in California my amazing girlfriend (now fiancé) proposed to me – and I said yes! Obviously. This woman has been the best part of my life for the past three and a half years, I couldn’t image what life would be like without her.

Now that I got the gooey stuff out of the way… on to the planning! And opinions. You hear that everyone has an opinion about your wedding, but it doesn’t feel quite real until it smacks you in the face. We’ve been engaged for a month, and if I had a dollar for every time I’ve heard ‘well have you thought about’ I would probably have enough to buy me some nice sparkly shoes. I shouldn’t be that mean, people are just excited and they want to help.

What I’ve found interesting so far is how we are navigating around the hetereonormative wedding traditions. There is something truly freeing about not feeling like you have to do this, or have to incorporate things into your wedding. It also kind of sucks? Don’t get me wrong, I love bucking the norm as much as the next queer lady, but I would like at least a road map to start from. Nothing has been clearly defined as gay wedding etiquette and that’s pretty awesome. From food to music to what we want to wear, it’s all up to us.

What’s even more interesting is how friends and family have been managing it. “Are you both wearing dresses? Do you guys do rehearsal dinners? What about cake?” Since neither of us are marrying a dude, people think that we automatically have to be unconventional. We’re bucking the norm because of who we are- I love being unconventional but it’s not something that I need to do. Nothing has to be traditional, unless we want it to.

It feels like we’re free and under a microscope all at the same time. Every time I call a space to look at I’m afraid they won’t even talk to us. Every time I fill out a form where they ask me who the groom is I get mad because I don’t see myself in the bridal industry.

Everything is a reminder that we’re different. That’s not necessarily a bad thing. I like being different. It’s something that I need to get used to because I know everything isn’t going to change as fast as it should or as fast as I want. Change will come by being our beautiful loving selves who will throw an awesome celebration. It’ll come when people realize how we’re the same, yet extraordinarily different.

15 thoughts on “Engayged”

  1. Why do some people gripe about the issue of same sex marriage if they are not adversely affected? Just get a life and grow up. There is nothing wrong with 2 people of the same sex being romantically involved. Homosexuality is not the same thing as paedophilia. Arguing about same sex marriage is pointless, not to mention unnecessary and unproductive.

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  6. Huh. No one has asked me if we will still have cake. LOL. That’s funny.

    I think I’ve put together a fabulous Pinterest wedding folder, if you want ideas. 🙂

    Congratulations!

    (P.S. I found you through Femsplain and read your post about bullying, that you were made fun of in school for having a moustache and shaving it. I was also made fun of for this, aggressively, on the school bus, by Liane Lerose, in grade seven. Whatever, we’re cute.)

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  7. Natasha and Eric Johnson, arguments made against the legalization of same sex marriage are absurd. If a church does not wish to perform a marriage ceremony for a same sex couple, that itself is not a problem. I find it absurd that heterosexual couples have the right to marry and same sex couples are denied that same right.

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